Well well look who just posted a blog...yep me!

Wow I haven't blogged in eons.  Feeling like I miss it but who knows if I have the drive and commitment to keep up. Only time will tell.  I am in a crochet mode right now.  I have 4 projects started and a few requests and other projects that I really am dying to try.  I have been stressed and anxiety ridden lately.  Crocheting helps me relax.  Even when my stitches and counts get messed up somehow and I have to rip out some rows.  My grandma taught me how to crochet a chain stitch and single crochet when I was still in the single digit years.  I taught myself more in my 20's made a few things, learned how to do a little knitting and cross stitch.  I stopped for YEARS.  But started back up again mostly in the cooler weather until this year when I needed a de-stresser and nothing else was working.  Even this only works while I am actually crocheting it doesn't help during my "non-crochet" hours.  Well that's it for now on this beautiful Saturday morning in NJ.  I might add some pictures later of my WIPs. 

Minion Painted Pumpkin

My first painted pumpkin for this Halloween. I haven't blogged in ages. He came out so cute though and I thought I'd put him here in case anyone still looked at this.

What a week!

It is a beautiful Saturday in September.  Just cool enough to where a sleeve but not so cool that you need a jacket.  Last Saturday it was also a beautiful day that is until the car accident!  I mean nothing like turning a gorgeous warm Saturday to crap with an accident and a trip to the emergency room!  And can I tell you the emergency room ...as soon as we came in the ambulance entrance.....smelled like a toilet! GROSS! I mean shouldn't those places smell better then THAT?  I do have to say the people were really nice albeit a bit slow moving.  But I won't judge since they could have been helping people worse off then us.  Our EMTs were awesome!  Nice guys and got the job done.  I just thank the Lord my daughter wasn't in the car with us.  She is just learning to drive and that might have scared her a little.  The accident by the way was totally not our fault! Some older man was not paying attention and rear ended a car making a left turn sending him into our lane! And my husband with his super quick reflexes got as far over and out of the way possible before the car spun into us.  We are both okay for the most part.  Just aches and pains.  Mine went away in a few days and well my husband's are lingering a little.  So after that end of last week/beginning of this week my husband's truck breaks down on the way to work on Thursday!  Did I mention that last Saturday we were headed to look at a used truck for him before we were "side tracked"???  Yep one crappy thing after another it seems lately.  But lets look at the good things so far for September... My daughter started her junior year of High School.  Oh wait is this good?  That means I am getting old...it also mean I was a junior 30 YEARS ago!!! Wow...it doesn't seem like 30...lol.  My niece and nephew started kindergarten!  They are so cute! And they seem to be doing good so far.  My nephew is a little bored but I am hoping this will pass.  They are so cute they got math "homework" and wanted to keep going in there workbooks.  I did mention to my SIL not to expect that to happen as they get older...lol.  Well I guess I'll go do something productive with my Saturday...yep you guessed it we are going truck shopping *cringe*! Wish me luck hopefully we actually make it to a dealer today!!!

UGH!!! :oP

Ok... I didn't want the entire month of July to go by without even doing ONE blog! But that is exactly what happened. UGH!!!  I have been a horrible blogger lately.  Barely reading the blogs I follow.  Not posting anything.  I could blame it on summer.  But I haven't been doing all that much summer "stuff".  I mean the occasional trip to the beach or water park...sure.  But that pretty much sums up my summer.  ONE trip to Great Adventure or as the youngsters call it Six Flags.  Working yes...cleaning eh...sometimes.  Crafting??? Not much at all ...except for some ankle bracelets for the girls and a bracelet and necklace or two.  No pictures .... oh I may have one on my phone...of the necklace.  I am just BLAH ....which I hate because I love summer! Like now I should be gearing up for the concert I am going to on August 13th....Kenny Chesney's Goin' Coastal Tour featuring Zac Brown Band!!! It is going to be a great concert!  Kenny Chesney does a great concert. I went to the one in 2009 it couldn't have been better!  See don't I sound excited?  But I'm just not feeling the excitement yet.  Not for anything.  The STRESS of the "real" world is getting to me.  I need to meditate or something!!!! But that would take motivation....and I just got nothin...  I am hoping to catch up soon....but now that my laptop is broken it will probably be later then sooner......who knows with me I am so RANDOM.  :o)  bbs

Celebrating a Birthday.

My daughter turned 16 on Thursday.  I can't believe the beautiful little girl I gave birth to is now 16! It went by WAY too quickly!!! I want her to be turning 5 again and just starting school! I want her to be 8 and learning how to ride a two-wheeler.  I want her to be 10 and starting to like boys a little more then her mom would care for!  I want her to be 12 even and just starting Middle School and starting to feel a little bigger or 13 and JUST becoming a teenager! I do NOT want her to be 16 and learning how to drive on the road with all the crazy drivers here in NJ.  I mean how is she going to react when the idiot who stayed up all night is starting to go over the line a little as she driving down the parkway? Is she going to be responsible enough to tell her friends NO she can't look at whatever they are showing her until they pull over???? Will she REALLY stop when the light is yellow if she is a little late for school? When someone needs a ride and she ALREADY has one person in the car is she going to let another in because she feels bad the other is stranded? OR is she going to obey the law that says only one other person in the car unless they live with you?  All these things and 100s more go through my head as I drive down the road every day thinking of my "little girl" on these busy NJ roads everyday.  And this is before she even passes her written test(she is not doing too well on the practice tests) and gotten her permit!  I guess I better enjoy 16 because 17 is going to definitely turn my hair gray!!! Its going to make me sleepless (although they can only drive until 12am).  Let me enjoy my last year of her needing me to driver her EVERYWHERE....oh wait her friends are starting to get their licenses starting this summer.....oh no the worrying is going to start .....now....goodbye brunette hello granny.... 

Ok well I am DEFINITELY going to dye when the time comes......but wish me luck with the worrying it is NOT going to be easy....

On a side note here is a little something I put together for her for her big SWEET 16 day. Well not big she didn't want any big party she just had 2 of her friends come out to dinner with us and then we had ice cream cake and sang and her dad surprised her with white roses.

Sorry some of the fonts are a little difficult to read I was trying to be "fancy".  I really was trying to find the generator that you put in the wording and it generated a Subway Art Poster.  Does anyone know where that is?????  Anyway...here's to a good year for my girlie!  And of course you all of you....

Good Morning....

Hello Out there in blog land...I do believe it is ACTUALLY spring.  It has been sunny for more then 2 days in a row AND the pollen is covering my vehicle.  I have some pics to share with you guys of THINGS I have been doing...don't get excited I haven't done THAT much because of the MOOD I have been in that I mentioned in my previous post .  But first can I just vent for a minute? Let me start out by saying I am 45 almost 46 years old.  Normally over the years I have taken my car through the car wash rather then hand wash it at home because well because it's easier and I am not exactly outdoorsy.  However, I am currently driving my father's SUV because well my SUV is at death's door after just about 279,000 miles she has had a good run and deserves to be put to rest ( or at least sold or traded in for an update)! ANYWAY back to my rant I feel like I have to keep this truck cleaner then I normally would because I would never want my dad to think I wasn't taking care of it the way he would....SO I have taken it through the car wash a few times (on the few sunny days we had last month!) and seriously it didn't REALLY get clean...it looked almost as dirty after my $15.00 as it did before! I mean if I had paid $4.00 maybe I wouldn't feel quite as bad but I mean COME ON!!! SO now on to my REAL rant...yesterday it was beautiful out ...I mean sunny & warm...so I figured when I got home from work I would wash the truck....I called my husband and asked him if there was a bucket buried in the garage anywhere I could use?...OKAY here come the 50 questions...Husband: What do you need a bucket for?  ME: I am going to wash the truck.  Husband: What do you mean? What are you going to use to wash it?  Me: Dish soap.  Husband: You CAN"T use dish soap! Me: Why not that's what we used when I was younger? Husband: You can't use dish soap look in the garage for car wash I think there is some in there.  Me: Ok whatever...do we have a bucket?  Husband: Listen there is a little beige bucket in the garage with some rags in it.  ME: Ok Husband: Ok now when you take the stuff out of the bucket put some car wash in it and you have to start by rinsing the car off first and then you use the brush to start scrubbing...blah blah blah blah....ME: Are you seriously telling me how to wash the truck???? Husband: Yes. Me: Goodbye. "Click"  I mean SERIOUSLY I KNOW how to wash a car!!!! I couldn't believe it!!!  THEN he calls back... Husband: when you.. Me: (interrupting) I'm not washing the car forget it.  Husband: Oh Ok I'll just do it when I get home. (no he didn't but he claims he will do it today).  People sometimes wonder why I don't do anything to my yard.....it is because I live with the OUTDOOR police.... It's just easier inside ALTHOUGH he often thinks he should tell me how to do things in there too...see I'm not REALLY lazy I just can't deal with being corrected......Whew! There I'm done ranting.  :o)

 This is the owl purse I made for my niece Madison.  I have another I'm making in all pink for my niece Rebecca.  Aren't they cute?  I got the pattern on etsy from Angels Chest it was SO easy to follow!

This is the blanket i am working on for my daughter.  I am hoping to get it done by her birthday that is 3 weeks from tomorrow.  We will see if I get motivated!  The colors are a bright yellow and teal SO cute!

 These are Peanut Butter Chocolate Brownies they were DELICIOUS.  I found the recipe at A Few Short Cuts.  A great blog with all kinds of recipes and coupons and deals!

 This is the poster I made for little Olivia.  I was going to make her a card but it just didn't seem like enough SO I whipped together this a couple hours before we left for the party! The purple and green flowers and the orange butterfly on the side are crocheted by me with hair clips attached that she can wear that way or slip off the clip and put them on a headband.  She LOVED it!!!

This is my niece Melissa(left) and my daughter Francesca(right) I just put them here because they are just so darn cute! :o)

Well that's all for today....off to do laundry (I don't get reviewed on my laundry skills...lol).  Hopefully I'll be posting again soon!!! Have a Great Day!!!

Happy Mother's Day

I know I haven't been here in a LONG time but I guess I just didn't have anything to say.  I've been in a mood.  I just wanted to wish anyone who pops on by here a Happy Mother's Day.  Hope your day is wonderful. <3 I will spend the day with my daughter. Which actually is like every Sunday because quite a while ago I declared Sunday as FAMILY DAY, no going out with friends, just hanging out at home or where ever we might go.  Today she claims she is going to bake me a cake.  We'll see if the actually occurs. I will probably have to help a little. But that's OK. AND I did buy the flavor mix SHE likes. It's a MOM thing.

My mom passed away in December of 2007. She was 61.  My mom had me when she was 18 almost 19 so I thought we'd grow old together.   That didn't happen. She left me. :o/ I miss my mom.  Not just today EVERY day. I miss my mom. There I said it.  I really miss her. It's been 40 months.  If other people hear that they probably think ...ok move on now.  And some days, SOME days, I am fine.  At least to the non-observer the people who don't REALLY know me.  But then the OTHER days I'm not ok, I'm not fine and seriously I just can't ... move on.  I talked to my mom a LOT, I mean a LOT lot. Almost EVERY day 2 or 3 TIMES a day! And now...NOW...I will never talk to her again.  Not here not on Earth...hopefully in Heaven one day. If I get there.  She is missing SO much. SO much she would have TRULY enjoyed.  My life would have been DIFFERENT if she was still here.  And well it can NEVER be like it used to be again.  I have so much I really WANT to tell her.  I want to talk to her about FRANCESCA.  She would be so PROUD of her.  I want to COMPLAIN to her about...well the THINGS we used to complain about to each other.  I want to TALK to her about current events! I want to just have her SAY "hey" the way SHE used to. I want her to tell me "I've got nothin" the way SHE would in a message. I want a HUG, I want a KISS, I want to TOUCH her hand... I LOVE her. I MISS her.  My MOM. We fought and ARGUED but, BUT my mom LOVED me more than and more differently than ANYONE.  And I LOVED and LOVE her.  And that's it she IS gone HAS been GONE for a LONG time now.  FOREVER gone. And even though I KNOW that life is not FAIR, that people DIE ,old people, YOUNG people, bad people, GOOD people,sick people, HEALTHY people, just everyday people DIE. I just WANT my mom back.  There I said it I want to turn back TIME. I want a MAGIC ball.  I want special POWERS. I want it all to be a NIGHTMARE.  I don't want to be FINE…I just want my mom.  :o/