And so it begins...

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Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Good Morning....

Hello Out there in blog land...I do believe it is ACTUALLY spring.  It has been sunny for more then 2 days in a row AND the pollen is covering my vehicle.  I have some pics to share with you guys of THINGS I have been doing...don't get excited I haven't done THAT much because of the MOOD I have been in that I mentioned in my previous post .  But first can I just vent for a minute? Let me start out by saying I am 45 almost 46 years old.  Normally over the years I have taken my car through the car wash rather then hand wash it at home because well because it's easier and I am not exactly outdoorsy.  However, I am currently driving my father's SUV because well my SUV is at death's door after just about 279,000 miles she has had a good run and deserves to be put to rest ( or at least sold or traded in for an update)! ANYWAY back to my rant I feel like I have to keep this truck cleaner then I normally would because I would never want my dad to think I wasn't taking care of it the way he would....SO I have taken it through the car wash a few times (on the few sunny days we had last month!) and seriously it didn't REALLY get looked almost as dirty after my $15.00 as it did before! I mean if I had paid $4.00 maybe I wouldn't feel quite as bad but I mean COME ON!!! SO now on to my REAL rant...yesterday it was beautiful out ...I mean sunny & I figured when I got home from work I would wash the truck....I called my husband and asked him if there was a bucket buried in the garage anywhere I could use?...OKAY here come the 50 questions...Husband: What do you need a bucket for?  ME: I am going to wash the truck.  Husband: What do you mean? What are you going to use to wash it?  Me: Dish soap.  Husband: You CAN"T use dish soap! Me: Why not that's what we used when I was younger? Husband: You can't use dish soap look in the garage for car wash I think there is some in there.  Me: Ok we have a bucket?  Husband: Listen there is a little beige bucket in the garage with some rags in it.  ME: Ok Husband: Ok now when you take the stuff out of the bucket put some car wash in it and you have to start by rinsing the car off first and then you use the brush to start scrubbing...blah blah blah blah....ME: Are you seriously telling me how to wash the truck???? Husband: Yes. Me: Goodbye. "Click"  I mean SERIOUSLY I KNOW how to wash a car!!!! I couldn't believe it!!!  THEN he calls back... Husband: when you.. Me: (interrupting) I'm not washing the car forget it.  Husband: Oh Ok I'll just do it when I get home. (no he didn't but he claims he will do it today).  People sometimes wonder why I don't do anything to my is because I live with the OUTDOOR police.... It's just easier inside ALTHOUGH he often thinks he should tell me how to do things in there too...see I'm not REALLY lazy I just can't deal with being corrected......Whew! There I'm done ranting.  :o)

 This is the owl purse I made for my niece Madison.  I have another I'm making in all pink for my niece Rebecca.  Aren't they cute?  I got the pattern on etsy from Angels Chest it was SO easy to follow!
This is the blanket i am working on for my daughter.  I am hoping to get it done by her birthday that is 3 weeks from tomorrow.  We will see if I get motivated!  The colors are a bright yellow and teal SO cute!
 These are Peanut Butter Chocolate Brownies they were DELICIOUS.  I found the recipe at A Few Short Cuts.  A great blog with all kinds of recipes and coupons and deals!
 This is the poster I made for little Olivia.  I was going to make her a card but it just didn't seem like enough SO I whipped together this a couple hours before we left for the party! The purple and green flowers and the orange butterfly on the side are crocheted by me with hair clips attached that she can wear that way or slip off the clip and put them on a headband.  She LOVED it!!!
This is my niece Melissa(left) and my daughter Francesca(right) I just put them here because they are just so darn cute! :o)

Well that's all for to do laundry (I don't get reviewed on my laundry  Hopefully I'll be posting again soon!!! Have a Great Day!!!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

I know I haven't been here in a LONG time but I guess I just didn't have anything to say.  I've been in a mood.  I just wanted to wish anyone who pops on by here a Happy Mother's Day.  Hope your day is wonderful. <3 I will spend the day with my daughter. Which actually is like every Sunday because quite a while ago I declared Sunday as FAMILY DAY, no going out with friends, just hanging out at home or where ever we might go.  Today she claims she is going to bake me a cake.  We'll see if the actually occurs. I will probably have to help a little. But that's OK. AND I did buy the flavor mix SHE likes. It's a MOM thing.

My mom passed away in December of 2007. She was 61.  My mom had me when she was 18 almost 19 so I thought we'd grow old together.   That didn't happen. She left me. :o/ I miss my mom.  Not just today EVERY day. I miss my mom. There I said it.  I really miss her. It's been 40 months.  If other people hear that they probably think ...ok move on now.  And some days, SOME days, I am fine.  At least to the non-observer the people who don't REALLY know me.  But then the OTHER days I'm not ok, I'm not fine and seriously I just can't ... move on.  I talked to my mom a LOT, I mean a LOT lot. Almost EVERY day 2 or 3 TIMES a day! And now...NOW...I will never talk to her again.  Not here not on Earth...hopefully in Heaven one day. If I get there.  She is missing SO much. SO much she would have TRULY enjoyed.  My life would have been DIFFERENT if she was still here.  And well it can NEVER be like it used to be again.  I have so much I really WANT to tell her.  I want to talk to her about FRANCESCA.  She would be so PROUD of her.  I want to COMPLAIN to her about...well the THINGS we used to complain about to each other.  I want to TALK to her about current events! I want to just have her SAY "hey" the way SHE used to. I want her to tell me "I've got nothin" the way SHE would in a message. I want a HUG, I want a KISS, I want to TOUCH her hand... I LOVE her. I MISS her.  My MOM. We fought and ARGUED but, BUT my mom LOVED me more than and more differently than ANYONE.  And I LOVED and LOVE her.  And that's it she IS gone HAS been GONE for a LONG time now.  FOREVER gone. And even though I KNOW that life is not FAIR, that people DIE ,old people, YOUNG people, bad people, GOOD people,sick people, HEALTHY people, just everyday people DIE. I just WANT my mom back.  There I said it I want to turn back TIME. I want a MAGIC ball.  I want special POWERS. I want it all to be a NIGHTMARE.  I don't want to be FINE…I just want my mom.  :o/